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Oct. 9th, 2004 @ 03:10 am (no subject)
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hello, it's a first post here :)
I had a dream a few weeks ago, and here it is. I'd like it if somebody could just tell me something about it, thanks :)

boi = my boyfriend
J=my brother

I rarely have dreams as such, but i had the following last night. I also discovered that i dream in colour.

I was in the boi's hometown, with my parents and my brother (though i couldn't see the brother unit, i just knew he was there) and we were in a lighting shop, buying a lampshade. It looked like one i had when i was a child.
Then we left the shop - mum and dad were talking with the shopkeeper. We were at a sort of summer fete, like Codsall fete but with a lot of my little pony merchendise. One of my friends from uni (i think it was the girl who lived across from me in 1st year) was with me, and I had got a my little pony annual set. I was telling her how i'd had it a long time (i don't; i don't think it even exists)
Then i was called by my parents and we sat on the stairs (this was a throwback to a dream i had a few nights ago with tiny soldiers and horses and such running across a landscape very much like stairs) and we were watching a video apparently. Me, my boi, my brother, my parents, an elderly relative of the boi (didnt look like his grandmother, but i dunno) and a panda-girl (who at this point kept switching from panda girl to blonde beauty) who knew the boi, were all sat on the stairs. Then dad said it was too late to watch the video and we all had to get in the car and go shopping (or something very like that)
So we all piled into our land rover; I was in my regular seat, with panda/blonde girl beside me, and mum beside her, because the elderly lady wanted to sit in the front, by my dad (whos the only one of us who drives anyway)
In the back was my brother and supposedly, my boi, but i could never see him as i glanced about.
We went along our home road then off into larger roads and parts from other dreams - an abandoned church with a dripping roof by the side of the road is one i remember clearly. Then we went past what looked to be my flats from the 1st year at uni - and then me and the boi and the panda-girl (who's neck i kissed because i though from the way she was cuddled in my lap that she was the boi for a moment) were in a boarding school. The panels were all wooden and brown, very beautiful old wood. It was early morning and i must have just woken up; i was rubbing my eyes a lot and i didn't appear to have any top on, from the way i ept wrapping my arms about me. I saw manga on a shelf; nausicaa, rayearth, all things that i have, but these were different editions. Then i left the room (god knows why) and moved to a window.
Panda/blonde girl was behind me; she followed me to the window then turned me round and said something. Then we were jogging along the coridoors (fat chance of that happening irl - i can't jog) and after following an awful lot of twists and turns and corridoors that looked the same (like in dr who, but made of wood) we were in a common room of some sort. All that dark wood, all bare, just benches, tables and walls.
My boi was sat there in a corner with some friends and panda girl went over there too. She sat between us and said nothing. A bloke (poss a teacher?) put his head over the wall (apparently the wall didn't reach to the ceiling, but it was still pretty high) and the room (full of boys, it must be said, plus me and panda girl) became rowdy and stuff.
And i was sitting there and i kept trying to talk to my boi, but he didn't answer. I dunno if he couldn't hear me, or if i just wasn't properly there so he couldn't see me either, but i felt sad, and jealous of those he was talking to.

Then i woke up :(

I have a feeling this says stuff about me, and the way i was handling my stress at the time (Had just quite uni, and the lecturers were hassling me) Thanks for any light anybody can shed of this.
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Date:October 17th, 2004 05:54 pm (UTC)

Ahhh hope this wasn't too long!!! But there is more to come

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This dream is very literal, not too much in the way of surrealism not until the end anyway. And you seem to remember so many details, that is a good sign. Clearly you have some anxieties about this dream but I don’t think there is anything out of the ordinary in it. Normally when I interpret dreams I go along with the narrative but I have decided to take a more holistic approach to yours simply because of the repetition of symbols and their meanings.

This dream deals with childhood and the theme of growing up and taking on adult responsibilities, it also contains symbols of control elements coming from your parents particularly. You make several references to toys such as the My Little Pony merchandise, when we see toys in our dreams it often symbolises childhood and the comfort that we felt as a child, they also represent a playful attitude to life and a need for security. Your need for comfort and more importantly guidance is echoed with the scene in the car. When you see yourself in the backseat of a car it symbolises the control that someone else has over you it can be negative or positive in connotation but in this case I think it is more about dependence, as though you have a dependence on your parents and particularly your father.

You may have a desire to learn, such as was demonstrated by the video you were supposedly watching, watching television or a film often symbolises the transferring of information in to the mind, consider whether you wanted to watch the video or whether you had been made to watch it that might give an indication as to your eagerness to learn. Remember that your mind is in control of what you are dreaming and just because you may not have realised you were watching it doesn’t mean the symbol didn’t mean something. Stairs are interesting, usually people dream of climbing a staircase or falling down one but either way stairs symbolise progress in your life so perhaps the fact you were sitting on them represented a feeling within you that you were not getting anywhere but remember the stairs were there so it was not as though you did not know they existed, you can see that there is an objective to achieve but perhaps you don’t feel as though you want to.

This feeling of conformity is also revealed through the taking of your regular seat in the car journey. On this journey you took you described a large road, I believe that might symbolise the enormity of the challenge you face and how significant it is to your life is made clear at this point. Also the abandoned church, beautiful imagery right there what could be simpler? Churches represent belief and value systems, not just any old beliefs but ones that are close to us and that are important to our way of living. The fact it was abandoned speaks volumes, so think about the way your life has changed, is your approach to life different now to the way it used to be? How have your opinions and beliefs altered as you have grown up?
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Date:October 17th, 2004 05:57 pm (UTC)

Part II

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Then in the car as a family unit; Your boyfriend, his elderly relative, your brother, Parents and panda-girl. To see your boyfriend probably represents your waking relationship with him, he does not seem to do much in your dream and you describe how you wished to speak with him near the end but are unable to. So he is present but perhaps you feel as though you need to engage with him more but for whatever reason you find that hard to achieve. Your brother, similarly, does not appear to do that much in your dream but again as with boyfriends, siblings and the way they behave in our dreams are often just mirrors of how we feel about them in real life so judging by how elusive he was in this dream perhaps you don’t feel as though you can relate to him or maybe he holds little significance in the dream other than to serve as part of the backdrop. The elderly relative is too vague a description so I can't say for certain what this means but if it was an old lady perhaps the grandmother of your boyfriend then this would represent nurture and protection also unconditional love but I wouldn’t read too much in to that. Far more interesting was the role played by this panda-girl come blond beauty. For me she symbolised your need to find your feminine side, and the blond element may reveal your need to get more excitement out of your life. This was emphasised more so with the kiss on the neck and the cuddling you spoke about, when you cuddle someone in your dream it is because you wish for more physical contact and affection. I know you said that you thought she was your boi but I am guessing that your mind was aware of what she was and what she meant to you at that time. You were simply embracing your more femininity. As for the metamorphosis she makes in to a panda this is a common dream anomaly and is consistent with your childhood connections I talked about earlier as pandas are cuddly and soft, perhaps she was more like a teddy bear rather than an actual panda? Then finally we have your parents. As I mentioned earlier regarding your father your parents are often synonymous with dependence but also security, power, shelter and love. But this first section of the dream before we get to the school is more about unity and family values I think, taking a journey together.

To dream of being in a school can often signify feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may also serve as a metaphor for your learning lessons in life and growing in to adulthood. Yet at the same time you describe this old wooden interior. When I look up wood in my dictionaries I find: dead, emotionless and discarded so perhaps this is how you feel about your school life as if it is now firmly in the past but as a symbol this didn’t really stand out to me as being all that relevant so disregard it if you don’t think it is consistent with how you actually feel.

It is at this point that the dream seems to pick up a bit and you describe how it is morning which would mean that you are thinking of a new beginning and a fresh start. I like the way that panda-girl almost acts as your shadow at this point, following you to the window; that symbol of hope and potential in life. Then two other positive elements when you see yourself topless which often indicates your ability to show love and to invite love from others and then you wrap your arms around yourself which says to me that you want to love yourself or at leased take care of yourself. You then find yourself jogging through the twisty corridors. Whether or not you can jog in real life is really neither here nor there, this is dream world so anything goes and when we jog in our dreams it is there to represent a steady progress, in this case a slow but controlled movement through a corridor which signifies a struggle to get somewhere, much like the road you imagined earlier. It is a passage way to get you from one place to another and the fact it is twisty says a lot about the way you feel about achieving your goals.
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Date:October 17th, 2004 05:57 pm (UTC)

The last part I promise lol

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Finally you reach your destination but it was it worth all that trouble? You find a common room which says very little other than that it might have been communal and comfortable. You see lots of boys which as a girl might be because you wish to adopt more masculine character traits? You sit down with your boi but panda-girl gets in the way. The fact you chose the corner of the room is interesting, it implies seclusion from others and again you find it difficult to communicate with your partner. Perhaps you need to spend more time with him in real life.

Overall I would say there are strong themes in this dream about your dependency on your parents and the relationship you have with your boyfriend perhaps not being as strong as you want it to be. Also there are a lot of symbols relating to taking a journey in life, albeit a long and difficult one but a fear of growing up perhaps and that of uncertainty. Very interesting stuff, sorry it took me so long I just like to make sure I can spend plenty of time on a dream before I interpret it, I like to do a thorough job. Sorry it was such a long interpretation lol. If you have any questions just ask. xxx